200th post!

It's the 200th post of our blog!!!!! hahaha. what a remarkable achievement. i guess i did more than half of it cause i had nth better to do. lol. alot more than my own blog. hehe.

actually i am emo-ing now. usual me... lol. but since zhiyang specially removed a draft 198th post to let me have this post, i decided that i should not waste his effort.

haha. also dont know why i suddenly emo la. lol. somebody says that im noisy when i wasn't involved in what they were doing, and that i am so thickskin that that comment wont hurt me. lol. ok la. im so used to the first comment that maybe she's right that im thickskin. (and u know it, i will still be noisy) but nvm la. u know i will be noisy again tmr. HAHAHA.

i am happy that people are looking forward to tmr. maybe only one or two ppl who told me la. but it made my day and made me felt so happy.

i am just very 矛盾 or smth. pardon my lack of vocabulary. someone said something like:
people's criticism are sometimes worth listening to... but just take it in your stride (:

i know la. i will still move one. u know. i dont know if i will improve. but i am affected sometimes. maybe im too sensitive...

trekking expedition. some ppl says it's good, some say it's retarded. some neutral. one say: i will not go. LOL. u know who u r. haha. he always gives me the best ans.

bbq xmas party. the first time jonquek told me everyone has to pay 15 bucks i was shocked. i regretted organising it because i know that it's not easy for many of us to spend our parent's money, including me. somemore it is so close to the chalet which doesnt come cheap too. i quickly wanted to reduce this burden. so the newspaper idea came up. (u know one piece of wrapping paper can go near to 1 dollar, unless u buy at rochor center la.) he told me, we still had to buy wire mesh, magarine brush, magarine, spoons, forks, plates, tongs, serviettes, bottled drinks, ice and cups. which add up with 9 bucks to become 15 bucks. and the extras to class fund. which i find it unfair for those who didnt go to pay and those who went to pay. sort of. so i kind of object to it. i am very thankful that jonquek was very understanding from all the frustration of always ordering bbq stuffs for us.

i just felt that things i do may seem retarded to some people la. for example, saying ppl for just settling for chocolate for xmas exchange. then the next day suggesting people to wrap the presents up in newspaper. contridicting myself. of trying to be sincere. i just hoped that the party will be a fun one. and not: chocolate exchange/potluck. maybe im just over protective of my idea of present exchange and was just plainly being pissed with tt person who finds it retarded and that it will be still be called a potluck when everyone buys chocolate. anw, im not very considerate either, i forgot valerie is allergy to chocolate. but lucky, now we know.

i am really sorry for making those who actually try to come for the xmas party pay. ( i am not saying others dont try, can see others really cannot come. and i am very happy that our class is damn zai, those who can come really come lor) for example kelly, i feel so guilty that i cracked a joke that their whole pw grp came up with excuses to not come. and now tt she's coming. yup. i really hope this will be a good one so that her sacrifice will be worth it. (:

i know i cant please everyone. i just felt like from bbq xmas party, presents exchange, newspaper wrapping to environmental friendly/saving cost. everything recieved negative comments. i am not saying tt u guys shld try to prevent saying these things, i want to know who u really feel/think. lol.

after recieving the sms of 15 bucks, i immediately recieved a comment: "siao la, i wont pay." and inside myself i went: "huh, so much...". then, i just got another comment: "frisbee 5 only". jonquek is also trying to help me reduce the less popular food/more mafan food so that we dont have to pay so much yet we wont go home hungry. hopefully we can lower to 8 bucks i guess. with enhao and kelly confirm joining us.

then we only need to pay 10 bucks even if we need to buy stuffs. but i am very happy that there's someone who went to help find the disposable stuffs. i found alot myself. lucky i have quite alot too. therefore we only need to buy plates! for the utensils part. anw, i am sure not many of u went to look for them. hahaha.

i am not complaining la. i just want to share my emotions, because i want to enjoy myself tmr. if u guys are not impt, i wont even care. i wont care what u guys think of me, i wont care what happen to us, i wont care about what i say. i will just dao.

not like i can complain too. i can imagine myself not cooperating sometimes. anw, i have prepared at least 3 things for us to do at night. yay!

i am happy that ppl are organising things themselves. i dont care if it's just within ur cliques, but i am glad everyone has friends in this class. from badminton to tennis.

i will continue to strive on and help make this class an even better one even though we are the best already. u have my promise. thanks everyone, i am happy i am in this class.

i want to thank zhiyang. because "someone" who did alot of nice things i mention many times previously is him. as much as i cant stand him sometimes, i am very happy that i have a friend who cares. cares to help make an effort to help make this successful, from looking for utensils, helping me to sms to inform everyone, contributing ideas to just simply looking foward to it and being enthusiastic. cares about how i feel. cares about whether i want to study with him tmr. cares about i need help to buy stuffs tmr. cares about me being emo tonight. cares about buying a present for me. (well, at least i know i am worth having a present. LOL) although i am not going to study with him, although he is not very good in cheering u up(LOL), i am very grateful. somemore i find him annoying with: WHY........ (HAHAHA), the good badminton rackets he has and him being my ENEMY in a certain way. HAHA.

i hope you have a friend like this. (: or even friends. actually, i have quite a few. in this class. im sorry that i am not thanking u. (probably because u r having a more ex present compared to zhiyang. LOL. jk)

anw, this is like a personal post. but i just want to dedicate this post to the class. because u guys are great. and i am sorry if i cant please everyone. and i love being in this class. and i will jiayou! (so mushy. almost written smth gross)


yays, i feel so much happier now.


LOVE,
Your favourite CT Rep, because u only got 1.



p.s. HAPPY BOXING DAY! Wang Yi better dont box me up in an airtight container in the fridge tmr... (valerie will go -_- now)
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